Back To Basics

Limbo

For the past one and a half months, I have been in a state of limbo. It allstarted back in September. I had gotten back from a month long vacation toVietnam, received some disappointing news, was coping with some emotionalissues, and began another semester of grad school. My life was in disarray andso was my rhythm. I was able to function throughout this challenging point in mylife, but it felt like a dull flurry of random activities. It was like I waswatching myself function run in a hamster wheel, frantically running, only toend up where I started.

I started to realize that I was plateuing in every facet of my life. My breakdancing, rock climbing, programming skills, and physique were basically the sameif not degrading. It was absolutely demoralizing, and it reflected in my dailylife. I started to consume more unhealthy foods and alcohol because it provideda temporary distraction from the feeling of defeat I was battling with.

After awhile, I started to think it's best if I quit everything and just focuson programming. Programming is what provides me sustenance and future comfortsafter all. Luckily, I never got around to quiting everything but programmingbecause, somehow, it just didn't feel right.

Soul Searching

This past three day weekend gave me a chance to slow things down and do a lot ofsoul searching. For the most part, I stayed home. I practiced guitar, did somecoding, cooked and ate a lot of food, and cleaned my apartment. During all ofthese activities, I was able to reflect upon my life. I didn't realize it untilnow, but all these trivial tasks were actually small achievements that rekindledmy self confidence.

They gave me enough confidence to remember what I was like before I started onthis path to mediocrity.

I was reminded that, as long as I am moving in what I percieve as forward, I washappy. Furthermore, I was reminded that every time I acheived something in life,it was because the achievement was a by-product of a habitial activity. Aconsistent stream of structured activity kept me calm and focused. I think it'sthe fact that I knew that each completed activity was a testament to mypersistence and that upon completion was another small step towards the end.Perhaps, my psyche just benefitted from the placebo effects of a structuredhabitual life.

Back to Basics

I am a firm believer of a habitual lifestyle. This belief was further affirmedby "The Power of Habits" book. I am a very easily distracted individual.Without structure in my life, every activity was a constant battle of my willpower and all of the distractions in the world. I guess, that the series of eventslisted above, distracted me enough that I forgot all about that. I am now backto the basics with a schedule!

It might sound silly that a schedule is a remedy for my malaise, but it's true.I was so invigorated by the schedule that I came up with, that I couldn't sleepand instead wrote this blog post to calm myself down.

My Panacea

Weekends are left without time constraints because the activies are prettyvariable like rock climbing, cooking, cleaning, and laundry. Also, I leave itopen ended for possiblility of spontaneous fun in between.

I also tried by best to keep dinner at a consisten time throughout the week sothat my hunger timings would consistent.

Although, this is my end goal, I know that I will slip some days. As long as I stick to this schedule as much as possible, I will be happy with myself.

B  => break dance practice  
C  => programming and blog related activities  
Cl => clean apartment  
Co => Commute  
D  => dinner  
G  => following the guitar course from Justin Guitar  
Gr => grocery shop and cook weeks worth of dinner  
La => laundry  
Ro => rock climb  
W  => work  
S  => school related activites  
Sh => shower

Mountain Training |   M   |   T   |   W   |   Tr  |   F   |   S   |   Su  |  
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09:30AM - 05:30PM |   W   |   W   |   W   |   W   |   W   | Ro    | Gr  
----------------------------------------------------------| La    | G
05:30PM - 06:00PM |  Co   |  Co   |  Co   |  Co   |  Co   | Cl    | S  
----------------------------------------------------------| G     | C
06:00PM - 06:30PM |   B   |   C   |   S   |   B   |   B   | C     | B  
----------------------------------------------------------| S     |
06:30PM - 07:00PM |   B   |   C   |   S   |   B   |   B   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
07:00PM - 07:30PM |   B   |   C   |   S   |   B   |   B   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
07:30PM - 08:00PM |   B   |   C   |   S   |   B   |   B   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
08:00PM - 08:30PM |  Co   |   C   |   S   |  Co   |  Co   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
08:30PM - 09:00PM |  Sh   |   C   |   S   |  Sh   |  Sh   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
09:00PM - 09:30PM |   C   |  Co   |  Co   |   C   |   C   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
09:30PM - 10:00PM |   C   |   C   |   B   |   C   |   C   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
10:00PM - 10:30PM |   C   |   C   |   B   |   C   |   C   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
10:30PM - 11:00PM |   C   |   C   |   B   |   C   |   C   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
11:00PM - 11:30PM |   G   |   G   |  Co   |   G   |   G   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
11:30PM - 12:00AM |   D   |   D   |   D   |   D   |   D   |       |  
----------------------------------------------------------|       |
12:00PM - 12:30AM |   D   |   D   |   D   |   D   |   D   |       |  
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